Friday, January 27, 2012
The stark realization... (epilogue)
Since this is of public record now, let me add to my beautiful children, one whom I just put to bed and needed just a few extra hugs from daddy to settle down for the night (that's you sweetheart) and the other who earlier patted me on the back like a reassuring old friend (at the age of 15 months mind you, yup I'm talkin about you buddy ;) )... guys, if you ever get the chance to read this... I love you and these nights when you think the best "toy" in the living room is the human jungle gym you call "dadadada" will always be some of the most cherished moments of your dad's life. Good night guys, sweet dreams. :)
The stark realization...
So I recently found these cool photos online which were taken by Kristina Alexanderson* (stuff I need to start finding more time to do myself being I'm a toy collector)....
and it got me thinking about my own kids and then it hit me and hit me hard. It's something that you can't appreciate unless you have children... Your children literally worship the ground you walk on. You are their ultimate hero, the sun in their solar system. It's something I revel in, hearing how... happy? hmm, happy doesn't give the emotion the justice it deserves, it's something so much bigger than happy that they are when I come home from work makes me feel awesome! When they grow up, they'll always love us, but they'll start making their own relationships, their own connections and find new heroes. It'll never be like it is when they're little like my two monkeys are now (and for a little while longer...). I suddenly have a new found appreciation and sadness for parents everywhere, most of all my own. You don't see it when you're growing up, because, and rightfully so, you are growing up, you're becoming your own man or woman and you're exploring the world around you. There's no time in the day to run to your parents with excitement, you've got to change so you can head to the movies with your friends. You've got maybe enough time for a "hi." "bye". I'm sure I'll feel incredible pride for my children as they grow into their own, but I now can see that I'm also going to feel incredible sadness, sadness that I ultimately will have to reconcile and get past no doubt, so that I can enjoy my golden years with my wife, the woman who I created these lives with and enjoy the lives my kids make for themselves as well. However, I'm sure there will always be a small part of me that fondly remembers and secretly longs for the time when my little ones ran to me with unbridled exuberance and joy at seeing my face and hearing my voice. It's something that even reading my blog now, if you don't have kids, you can maybe envision what it would be like, but I don't think you can truly comprehend it and feel it's gravitas. Wow, that really hit me hard. So let me end this post by saying, while we can't go back to the way it was when we were little, I can honestly appreciate it now. I love you mom and dad. Thank you for everything you've ever done for me (and us, your five kids)
*Kristina Alexanderson work can be found here
and it got me thinking about my own kids and then it hit me and hit me hard. It's something that you can't appreciate unless you have children... Your children literally worship the ground you walk on. You are their ultimate hero, the sun in their solar system. It's something I revel in, hearing how... happy? hmm, happy doesn't give the emotion the justice it deserves, it's something so much bigger than happy that they are when I come home from work makes me feel awesome! When they grow up, they'll always love us, but they'll start making their own relationships, their own connections and find new heroes. It'll never be like it is when they're little like my two monkeys are now (and for a little while longer...). I suddenly have a new found appreciation and sadness for parents everywhere, most of all my own. You don't see it when you're growing up, because, and rightfully so, you are growing up, you're becoming your own man or woman and you're exploring the world around you. There's no time in the day to run to your parents with excitement, you've got to change so you can head to the movies with your friends. You've got maybe enough time for a "hi." "bye". I'm sure I'll feel incredible pride for my children as they grow into their own, but I now can see that I'm also going to feel incredible sadness, sadness that I ultimately will have to reconcile and get past no doubt, so that I can enjoy my golden years with my wife, the woman who I created these lives with and enjoy the lives my kids make for themselves as well. However, I'm sure there will always be a small part of me that fondly remembers and secretly longs for the time when my little ones ran to me with unbridled exuberance and joy at seeing my face and hearing my voice. It's something that even reading my blog now, if you don't have kids, you can maybe envision what it would be like, but I don't think you can truly comprehend it and feel it's gravitas. Wow, that really hit me hard. So let me end this post by saying, while we can't go back to the way it was when we were little, I can honestly appreciate it now. I love you mom and dad. Thank you for everything you've ever done for me (and us, your five kids)
*Kristina Alexanderson work can be found here
Monday, January 9, 2012
What a sports weekend!
So Friday night the NY Rangers looked like a tired team after an exhausting stretch that culminated in an exciting Winter Classic victory over the hated Flyers and they STILL managed to beat the Penguins 3-1, this team is the real deal! I love every facet of the team and it's cast of characters (all highlighted in HBO's fantastic docudrama 24/7: The Road to the Winter Classic) and June is looking really exciting right now. ;) Even got to rub it in my cousin's face a little. Sorry Steph. :P
Then on Sunday in the early edition, Eli and the Giants basically had their way with the Atlanta Falcons for a beat down to the tune of 24-2. The Defense didn't give up a single point. Of course next week against team discount double check should be a little more of a challenge, but ELIte Eli should be able to hang with the perennial MVP.
Finally, the sports weekend was capped off with the Tebow Express making magic! Double Pittsburgh pain this weekend... sorry Steph again. I'm sure I'll blog on the merits of Tim Tebow soon enough, but how can you not like this guy!? Next weekend should be great, Giants / Packers and Broncos / Patriots! Can't wait!
Then on Sunday in the early edition, Eli and the Giants basically had their way with the Atlanta Falcons for a beat down to the tune of 24-2. The Defense didn't give up a single point. Of course next week against team discount double check should be a little more of a challenge, but ELIte Eli should be able to hang with the perennial MVP.
Finally, the sports weekend was capped off with the Tebow Express making magic! Double Pittsburgh pain this weekend... sorry Steph again. I'm sure I'll blog on the merits of Tim Tebow soon enough, but how can you not like this guy!? Next weekend should be great, Giants / Packers and Broncos / Patriots! Can't wait!
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